thankful

im thankful for my crappy apartment.lol even though its not the best im glad i have somewhere to call home. im thankful for my family..Austyn,Ashley..my mom and Dizzee :) there always there to support and help me. Austyn is the light at the end of my tunnel and Ashley is my heart. Florida might be on hold for the moment. but it will happen someday! we were suppose to leave in April.but plans might be changing. either way were getting our own place! im ready to be on my own with my family.

goodbye

It's amazing how you realize when you lose someone,
you get mad at yourself for not saying the things
you could have said a million times. You take life
for granted all of the days spent doing nothing when
you could have been with that person. Anyone can be
taken from us at any point in our lives but we always
wait until they're gone to say the things we never had
the courage to before. At some point you learn to accept
the fact that the people you wish wouldn't change, do.
Goodbyes hurt, but only mean forever is you let them.
Pictures never replace being there, and nothing lasts forever.
But you also learn to laugh until your stomach hurts,
act so crazy that people think you're high,
and live for the days with your best friends.
You learn to just have fun because life is too short
to worry about change. Nothing is forever, forever
is a lie. All we have is the time from hello to goodbye,
you do what you gotta do, know what you know, hang on
until you can't anymore and then learn to let go. As
we grow up, we learn that the one person that wasn't
supposed to ever let you down, probably will. You
will have your heart broken, probably more than once
and it gets harder each time. You'll break hearts too,
so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for something an old one did.
You will cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll
eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures,
laugh too much, love like you've never been hurt because every
sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness that you
will never get back. Life is too short to wake up in the morning
with regrets. So love the people who treat you right and forget the
ones that don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason.
If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said that it would be easy, they just promised that it would be worth it."?

I think i was right..
I think the only way i will ever be & stay happy is for everything to go the way i originally planned from the beginning.
Single with my child..
and Happy.
I cant think of anything else that would make me happy,
besides living on a beach ;)
but maybe that will come in time.
with lots of money and a good job of course.

AIRFORCE

So today i called a recruiter to set up an appointment.

and we got through some information,

we get to the tattoo part,

and i cannot join BECAUSE I HAVE A TATTOO ON THE BACK OF MY NECK.

omg!!!

are you fucking serious?!?!

im pissed.

this is something i really wanted to do.

i was gonna try to do something with my life.

and i cant.

fuck it!

Brown eyes;;So true!

BROWN EYESEither sexy as hell or are adorable. Loves to make new friends. Their relationship tends to be very honest because if they aren't truly in love, then the relationship won't work. They fall easily for their best friends. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite. Enjoys being with their guy/girl. LOVES to party. Can make ANYONE laugh or cheer them up. Loves to please the one they care for or love. The BEST ones at sex . is NOT THE PERSON YOU WANT TO PISS OFF WILL KNOCK YOU OUT!!!!! ( STRAIGHT BAD ASS) Amazing Kisser.

Thinking about you

So i think everyone in my past deserves a second chance.

not at a relationship,

just a friendship..

or to just let go of all of the things that have happened.

and move on.

i don't want to hold grudges anymore.

i just want to be happy and keep doing what i can to stay happy.

i'm still single,

but i'm not looking.

my heart is still taken.

and i am mentally involved with someone, and physically.

but were not TOGETHER.

He understands how i feel, and i have explained my feelings to him.

so that's all that matters.

i don't like dishonest people,

and i wont become one.

.........................................................

on another note, i have made a few new friends recently..

and reconciled with a few old ones.

=]

and i am thrilled to death.

i cant wait till i can afford to move.

i am completely sure where i want to reside.

and that my home.

in Clarksville,

its nothing special..and it sucks a lot of times..

but what place doesn't?!?!

tell me one and then we can talk.

but its where my heart is..

my family, and my friends.

<3

and that is all i want.

thanks for reading!

have a wonderful day.

Sick of being unhappy.

I just can't seem to be happy anymore i dont get it.

no matter what i do, or what i try to make myself happy...

it just doesnt work!

at all...

i give up